Release

This is what I need to do.
Thankfully setting up this page has gone my way.
If it hadn’t…I would have been upset.
Things must go my way
There must be control
Total control.

This isn’t freedom
Is it really important how this page looks
Can it not just be the way it is?
I am kidding myself, with my high thinking.
The page looks good, so I am happy.
If it was crap
I would have given up

I see total freedom
As total control.
Something is stuck
I cant force it
I can just let it be.

My peace of mind
Depends on things
Because I let it.

Things are impermanent
They multiply
Become confusing
Some go ‘missing’
Because I cant immediately see them.
Things can also be no things
Loss
Despair.
Doubt
OCD its called
Too many things
All seen as mine
What does that mean.?
I own things.
What does that mean?
They take on animistic beingness
There is sorrow when they are missing
Like a death.
I feel sad because of the way I see things.
If I have things there is both happiness and unhappiness
I need to see that things are just things.
They don’t make me happy
I need to break my havingness link
With people, places, and things.
The outer world does not keep me happy.
I get bounced along, not in control.
Even so I need to go with the flow
And see stuff as it is.
And have it ,or not have it
No head trouble either way.
Stuff is just stuff
No need for attachment.
Of itself it wont make me happy…
I cant watch over all of ‘my stuff’ at once
Time to let the stuff just be.
Time to let the Kosmos be
Now